⚠ Content warnings: pain and medical stuff
we decided to write some poetry while we were in pain in the shower this morning:
“On a scale from one to ten,
how much pain are you in?”
what is ten?
“One is next to nothing,
and ten is the worst you have experienced.”
how can there be anything but one?
in what universe does anything even fairly reach one fifth of the most pain we have felt?
what is a scale from one to ten when you are constantly in pain?
when your baseline of a good day is when you went to the kitchen and it felt like you did 20 squats to get there?
what is zero? what does a lack of pain feel like?
we have forgotten that feeling.
we catch glimpses of zero.
our brain spares us.
dissociates from all bodily sensation.
we lose time, we lose focus, but, for a moment,
at least we lose some feeling of pain.
it’s a ghost now.
a pain like hearing muffled music
a glimpse of zero